Delayed happiness

About last night...

I went to bed quite early, around 9 pm. I felt exhausted and wanted to get in as much sleep as possible.

Sunday bedtime routine looks like this for me;

1. Shower and skincare routine after dinner.

2. Journaling sessions, which include;

   • a past week's evaluation (how the week was, any struggles, any wins, what little things I did to move closer to my goals, how I felt about my progress etc)

   • upcoming week (what are the priority goals, week's power statement, week planning etc)

   • Prayer journaling + meditation

3. Reading

4. Lights off.

I bring this up because, during that evening's prayer journaling, I begged God. I asked Him to open any door so I don't have to go to work anymore. Any door, like a lottery win or something. Of course, my humanness was praying without much faith, because it's not the first time I've prayed this prayer.

Then I sat for mediation. And it's then that I heard it.

I heard that soft, quiet voice.

Some identify it as God's voice. Some call it 'the gut feeling' or intuition. Some walk around saying 'I just felt it... something in me spoke and I felt it'.

Well, whatever you call it... I heard it. For me, it's God's voice. And He asked me a question. His question could be the reason I feel so at peace for a Monday morning.

"Why do you deny yourself happiness?"

"Why do you delay being here and enjoying now, when I have given you so much to be happy about?"

At that meditation, I made myself a promise to seek the positive in everything. I will be happy in every situation. I will not let my joy depend on any outside factors or other people… but my God and myself.

The Healing

A month later, Monday mornings have never been the same.

A month later, I look forward to going to work daily. Why? because I realised I like my colleagues... some have become more like sisters than colleagues.

I like being around them, I like the environment. Our bosses are kinda chill and very understanding.

I've come to realise that even the commute is really not that bad. A good audio book or podcast and I've made good use of the time.

"Yeah, Christine...ok, but what’s the point of this letter?"

My point is;

• Happiness is truly a choice. It's not a feeling that will come to you, it's not a person nor a thing.

• Happiness is not a destination you arrive at.

• Happiness is you deciding to find joy in every little thing, every moment you are alive.

• Happiness is seeing God's hand in every part of your life and being grateful for it.

• Happiness is found in knowing that despite what you're going through, God is by your side. You only need to trust and have faith.

And it's when you get that, when you accept that and surrender all your worries and anxieties to Him, that His peace comes. A peace like no other.

You've finally understood that you have no control over anything but yourself and your choices.

So you might as well choose happiness... right?!

Love & light,
Christine

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