Thank you imposter syndrome...

We're 5 months into the year and so much has happened in my life.

Am sure you know one or two of those people who always complain about days flying.

"Oh wow! How this year has gone by! Can you imagine we're already in March?"... I'd always roll my eyes at them.

It's even more annoying when they add the... "I've been so busy, I didn't see the time fly..."

Well, am now of them now.

I literally woke up the other day and thought how are we already heading to June!

Days feel shorter than they used to. The night even more.

Why is time rushing?!

Truth is, I now have busy days.

Of course I was busy before… but now I’m busy with purpose.

That's the only difference.

I have a 9-5, I am a mum of 2 living in a foreign country where you can’t afford to have live-in help at home.

My days were filled with house chores, mum duties, work and everything life.

I’ve been a robot on autopilot for years. My life felt like a long, never-ending, empty journey with no specific destination.

Then I discovered something called The Zone of Genius.

While listening to a podcast on entrepreneurship, Gay Hendricks’ book ' The Big Leap' was mentioned. The podcaster, Amy Potterfield, swore by this book. She recommended it for anyone feeling the way I felt and wanted to change. Immediately I find and bought it on amazon.

Gay also talks about the Zone of Competence.

He describes this as the zone where you do things just as well as others would.

Basically...

• not much growth

• staying safe

• not taking risks

You’re just there!

Now, when the year started, I committed to making 2024 THE year!

I made sure to find me an accountability partner who’d keep me on my toes. That’s my sister, L.

Among the books I've read so far, I read The Big Leap.

Through the book, I came to realise that where I’ve always wanted to go, where God meant for me to be... but never known how to get there was the Zone of Genius.

And so my journey began.

Where the impossible becomes possible

Am sure you’ve heard that we all have special gifts that are uniquely ours.

The Zone of Genius draws on that.

This is where you thrive. You are happy.

You are doing the things that feel so right to you and your nature. They feel so good, you'd do them for free for the rest of your life.

Gay says to enter this zone, you have to be very aware of who you are and the skills that you naturally possess.

As I read the book, I had no idea what my innate skills were. All I knew is I loved writing, telling stories, talking to people especially about women’s mental wellness and self-development.

I knew that people came to me for advise and I had this weird thing where I could feel when someone was struggling with something.

I also had a strong desire to help fight period poverty. To give young girls a chance to stay in school without missing classes or exams simply because of their periods.

Then a crazy thought crossed my mind.

Had I just discovered my Zone of Genius?

I decided to entertain the thought. What's the worst that can happen?!

The beginning of the purpose

I took a few days to reflect on this.

How was it gonna work?

I don't have a Uni degree.

I don't have any formal training as a therapists or counsellor.

I have zero qualifications to run a non-profit organisation.

This was impossible.

But then I remembered Gay's words on Upper Limit Problems.

These are the self-sabotage behaviours and tendencies we unconsciously get into when things are going right in our lives.

Mine here was;

• had possibly identified my purpose (zone of genius) but not willing to see it as so

• Upper limit problems; believing that I'm not qualified, no education so it would never work.

In my head, this was mission impossible... so why even try?!

But this is where you have to call on will and determination.

I’m determined 2024 will not end with me at the same place I was when it started.

It’s not going to be another year slipping by with me wishing things were different, yet not doing anything about it.

And so...

I turned to meditate.

I needed to understand why I had this mindset. After all, this was the one thing I really wanted to do. The one thing that truly got me excited about the future.

Then I stumbled upon this statement;

And it was all right there.... it was fear!

I was scared of stepping into my zone of genius. Just the thought of it made me feel like a fraud, an imposter. Everyone was going to see through me. They would know I was unqualified to help women heal.

It had been fear all along.

It had stopped me so many times before.

But not this time.

Befriending fear and using it for good

It took a few hours to come up with a vision of what I was gonna do and how I'd do it.

I wasn’t going to procrastinate. The first name that came to mind would be it.

I looked up how to set up a newsletter, which tools were best and subscribed to one. Watched YouTube videos, create a website and set up social media.

And within a few days, Udada Healing was up and running!

I was terrified beyond imagination.

I sent out invitations to friends, posted on my personal social media accounts and announced to the world that Udada Healing existed.

And yet... the world never stopped. It's the 'wow, I did... I actually did it!'

I am so damn proud of myself!

And so the journey in my Zone of Genius begins :)

The Healing

Long story short...

You have a dream, that one thing you’ve always wanted to do. You’ve let fear stop you for doing it so many times before.

You’re upper limiting yourself with excuses and imaginary problems.

I want to challenge you today.

Take the chance and bet on yourself. Take the risk and see what happens.

For me, the regret of never trying was going to be more painful than trying and failing.

Good thing is I'm not planning to fail.

Love & light,
Christine